Warmness of The face..

2011-06-27T08:03:00.000-07:00

You know what? I've decided. If I can't do it for myself. I will do it for my close friends who have supported me throughout everything. I promise. i wont disappoint them, I really want to make them proud. and I swear, and these people will be the first to know when the storm is over.
I am not going to let her take over my mind.
not anymore

2011-06-17T12:39:00.000-07:00

You can do anything you want with my life, just three things. do not get my studies, my friends, and my money involved. thank you.

2011-06-16T02:11:00.000-07:00

I know I cant tell you. thats why I am writing it here.

I miss you.

2011-05-28T01:52:00.000-07:00

you know. i really dont understand why i have to be left out again. i honestly do not deserve this. officially the worst year in my entire life. this is the first saturday that i actually stay home while my friends are outside. ignorning my calls. _|_ society.. id rather live in a fucking jungle

2011-05-20T10:24:00.000-07:00

dear diary,
Things are getting harder for me.this is hard for me to take. i swear. Im put in a vulnerable position where one mistake means the end of everything. and apperently. I have no knowledge of what is right and wrong with these people.
am i cursed?

2011-05-14T12:07:00.001-07:00

just came back from town. met dom wayne nic and chelsea for jamming in the afternoon, followed by walking around orchard until 8pm. met nicki,kaisha,lydia and rachel for dinner in a thai restaurant at far east. had a lil chilli overdose followed by beer. my stomach feels really hot now hahahah. followed by midnight movie at lido. Thor is a really great movie. it really gives us an idea how fuckin primitive we are compared to any aliens if they ever exist. fuckin love the movie. went home after that. nicki and the cab driver were having a political talk. Im not interested at all. but anyways. it was a great weekend. looking forward for weekdays now

2011-05-13T10:33:00.000-07:00

she thinks she is so blady pretty uh.. kanina.. lift her ego too much.. ugly piece of fuck

2011-05-11T09:23:00.000-07:00

she doesn't know that telling me how she is close to people i dislike like that actually helps me a lot in getting over her. and the best part is she likes it and I love it. man, things are turning good right now. hopefully she wont be nice to me for another few weeks? in that way I could actually go through all these in a much faster paste. now i do not even see the point why i should call her out if I'm bored. that means I'm 80% independent from her. the remaining 20% will be gone soon. i just know it.
dear god.
thanks for reopening my eyes.
you tried to do that by making my friends to tell me off her.
at least now
I realize. she is not my type at all.

2011-05-10T07:10:00.001-07:00

oh this is how much I miss talking to her at night. I hope this awkward feeling towards her ends soon. I really want this friendship.
cheers to love

2011-05-05T07:28:00.000-07:00

dear diary,
I can't believe that everything was a lie. I've been living in denial for months. to be honest things are better kept secret. I love her. a lot. and getting over you has been my nightmare for almost two years. I know this sounded cheesy and shit. but you really made me believe in love. and now that you told me its a lie. its almost impossible for me to recover. I know the truth hurts. it does.
people say that what doesnt kill me makes me stronger
yeah. true. if i get through this that means ill be able to numb my feelings towards the greatest thing that ever happened to me.
which means ill be numb towards everything. and fuck that.
you know what this feels like?
it felt like someone gives you a billion dollars and you have to give it away the following day.
yes it does feels like that
today its 5/5/2011.
diary, I've decided today.
to hurt myself.
by forgetting about you.
there is no other way to do this.
Ive been a coward for years.
but you know, while pretending to love me, she did her job getting over me while I fall deeper instead
I was stupid
really. really stupid.
if you dont think i am, then at least I FEEL stupid.
I felt useless

things that I learnt from this :
when you are in love, things are better than they are.
but when you are broken, it feels like everything is dark.

well, you know one explanation why i kept holding her back?
I just wanted to feel alive.
cause even your voice made me smile.
it never fails to do so.

however.

I believe someone is there waiting for me.
maybe, not anytime soon.
but at least, I do believe.

so cheers to love

2011-05-01T23:13:00.001-07:00

one question i always wonder. why are you letting yourself do this?

2011-04-29T10:04:00.000-07:00

seriously.

2011-04-17T09:00:00.000-07:00

back from town. went to follow rachel to collect her JUSTIN BIEVER ticket followed by pooling and lan. we met brandon and eugene halfway.. and brandon tagged with us all the way until night. and now im going to watch the match.
cheers~

2011-04-10T09:57:00.000-07:00

that is it. im not going to lie to myself anymore. she isnt the one.its over. time to turn over a new leaf.

2011-04-07T10:04:00.000-07:00

if i can't make you happy then i shall give up

continue from ( 1.12.09)

2011-03-24T14:44:00.000-07:00

It took him 4 seasons to let it go.
the earth spinned countless times for him to devour his loss.
so as when the sun was about to rise.
another fallen saraphine came across the vulnerable.
cupid took the bullseye and she captures his heart.

so as the she missed the boey.
some seemingly calm creature approached him.
as it hover above the choppy water of the ocean.
a seemingly bright light appear before him.
gave him.. hope.

hope that doesnt trully exist.

the boy swam towards the fallen angel.
as he approach her. he felt the warmth.
he finally felt what it was to be alive again.
he then reached for her hands.

suddenly atmosphere changed. the giant moon turned to tropical sun. the choppy seas turned to blossoming flowers in a rose garden.
he then moved in.. to explore deeper to the beautiful island
it was beautiful.

time passes by

day by day.
weeks,
months,

he then decided to lie his heart there.

things turned catastrophic .

suddenly everything turned back.
strong currents drag him near Davy Jone's locker.
he was struggling to surface.
as he did he realizes.
the light shows something unreal.
the light shows fairy tale.
the light made us feel alive for awhile.
it made us believe.
the truth is. none of that ever existed.

its the light of love.

he gave up hope.
well, for now.

8>

2011-01-22T21:14:00.000-08:00

morning everyone! i was too tired to post last night so i decided to post it once i woke up.
so anyways.. its the 23rd of january 2011 and exams are already around the corner. Im not ready at all..
however, to release the stress that i still dont feel at all.. we took sean's mom's car and went for a joy ride, 3 days in a row.. i didnt go for the first day because it was a thursday night. we fetch junmo on the second and third day at redhill.. fetch lydia home, fetch vic chris and amelia from cine.. fetch kaisha and rachel from tampines.. we felt like a taxi driver, but it was FUN! :D
oh yea, and we encountered roadblock everynight. :) it was fun! even tough we were kinda scared but yeah.. the high feeling of relief was the sex.. :p
i also went on a date with rachel yesterday. but it turned out to be a shopping day for me, i bought a few topman shirt and it cost me 1/2 of the remaining money in my bank. smart ass.

2011-01-20T07:35:00.000-08:00

there is no explanation why i cant get her out of my head. but one thing for sure. i still have feelings for her. I'm going to try my best to remove it from me. it takes awhile. maybe.

2011-01-18T05:35:00.000-08:00

hi, i started doing the stupid aerospace project today and i skipped engineering materials retest. yes, i failed by 2 marks. roflolmaomho

2011 :)

2011-01-17T06:27:00.000-08:00

so today im writing again:)
its 17th jan 2011. new years, new resolution, new hopes, new wishes.
I'm expecting a lot of things this year
especially the fact that sean ryan and junmo might me transfering to NP:)
anyways about today,
i went to school with my NEW HAIRCUT.
everyone was like.. WOHOOOO NICE CUT hahaha :)
ok thats it.. hahah i lost my project sheet and im going to find it
loves-

2010-12-02T02:58:00.000-08:00

today is day i've decided to let go of everything. I have not been updating my blog for a few while. My feelings been fucked nowadays.. I was single on status since three weeks ago and now, the 2nd december 2010, I've decided to turn over. However this doesnt mean i dont love her. I just dont want to be pushed around anymore. i feel cheated everytime and this is not me. We'll see how fast i will take to get over this.

good luck for everything. it was a fun one year. you made 2009 and most of 2010 the best year of my life. so far.
adios-

the day i got my vanessa

2010-10-21T13:21:00.000-07:00

ok the title says it all.. i just named my new baby lappy vanessa.. cute right? its a gateway nv49c18g.. i just got it today anyways.. freakin awesome.
ok so anyways.. today is my lucky day
first
vanessa's price went down to $999
i got free mouse, headset and a bag
with that money i buy a speaker :)
i got accepted in ebm course
i got accepted in aerospace design diploma plus programme
my internet tethering finally works

but one thing
today i got my palm skin ripped off
i have to wear a freakin bandage now..
but other than that
awesome day
<3

2010-10-14T11:55:00.001-07:00

hello earth, its been awhile since i posted anything. its not like anybody is reading my stupid blog or what, but whatever..

so anyways, I'm planning to buy a gateway laptop hopefully by this weekend.. you know what? this is going to be my first "first hand" personal computer.. previously, My dad always treat me like a dumpster by throwing my bother's used stuff at me.. but i guess things are going to freakin change around here..

its 4 days to my 11th month with baby and diary, i just want to tell you, that out of all the months that ive been dating her this is the most difficult one, from the beginning of last month till now. I bet thinsg are pretty awkward for her. like, we decided to break up like, weeks back but decided not to. and now she is trying her best to be in love again. you know, just like the song dakota by rocket to the moon.. except for the part that he barely know her.. but she is faking love with him or whatever shit..

you know i bet you can tell im really bored..
the truth is yes, i am fuckin bored mate,
its freakin 301 in the morning
im fuckin hungry..
got to find food
ciao

2010-09-12T08:23:00.000-07:00

Cute right? hahahah

A journey back , -1

2010-09-08T11:46:00.000-07:00

Today im flying back to indonesia, its been awhile since im home, like literally.
I'll be leaving behind my girlfriend for 2 weeks. I'll be missing out. but i guess this is just the break that i needed.
I need to get away from this place for awhile :)

plan :
1st week:
celebrate hari raya, family reunions and house visit

2nd week:
unknown, probably friends reunification.. hahah

3rd week:
BACK to Singapore

countdown till flight: 21 hours and 40 mins

2010-09-07T14:18:00.001-07:00

I hate it when you hide your feelings from me

2010-08-19T03:32:00.000-07:00

19th august 2010
dear diary,

I want to feel excitement again
I want to invent a time machine that could bring me in time
I want to feel loved again
I want to live life without guilt again
I do not want to be haunted by all my past again
I want to be a boyfriend
I want to feel proud
I want to be myself again
I want to be able to feel again.

2010-06-22T11:08:00.000-07:00

dear diary,
fucking hell, do you know how long it took for me to load this damn page? 5 mins, yea its not short, trust me. some ass-fucking-hole is downloading upstairs and really. they are taking 99.8% of the internet which the 0.1999999999999999999999999% goes to the wire resistance of the cable. bla bla bla macam faham only

rachel uploaded a few pictures on facebook today, and i kinda liked this picture.

I KNOW RIGHTTT.. we're fucking cute.. thank youuu :)

ok so what happened today was i went to school, spent 6 dollars on stupid train and bus for my journey there and guess what. all they asked me to do was to take down my signature on some shit which took me less than a minute. *laugh*

today i successfully annoyed rachel by using her phrase "awhshopoorthing" in every sentence i use. and im pretty much banned from using that phrase now.

its 219am and im going to watch the match. go argentina!

bye <3

p.s Im going to dye my hair tomorrow, purple colour.
cant wait.
*excited face* ;D

2010-06-21T11:00:00.000-07:00

hallo!!! its been awhile since i updated my blog, im bored, just want to write down what i thinking
its 2.13am, im waiting for the 230 match. im supposed to be asleep by now? but i cant sleep cause my brother just brought me down to the hawker centre so my stomach is kinda full and now there is no way i that im going to sleep with my bloated stomach.
Im supposed to go to school to sign some tuition grant thing later, to be honest im not really sure how this tuition grant thing supposed to work, but all i know for now is my tuition feees will be $17000 cheaper annually and yeah. who the heck can afford 17k more for just a school fee in a year, right?
anyways, two days ago ,i celebrated my 7th anniversary with rachel and guess what?
i was broke.
rachel gave me a memorable gift made from ice cream stick and glue.. i wish im that creative uh. hahah :(
you know i have shit loads of things to write in here since i last posted, its been hell of a time.
we went through a lot of shit and chocolates. we fought, we kissed, we hugged, we cry, we punch, we bite, we smiled, we laughed. yeah.
to be honest,
this is the most beautiful 7 months i've ever had in my life, so yeah.
holy shit i wrote one whole composition essay here. if im still taking o's i think i exceed the allowed words already. hahah
hey babe if youre reading this, i want you to know, i love you helluvalot. and i miss you like crazy now. "hey i left jessica alba for you, remember?" *shh*
but really, *awhshopoorthing* hahahah
goodnight diary, the match is starting damn it. its going to be a hxc one.
i hope :)

cheers to love-

2010-04-07T07:11:00.000-07:00

hey guys! if you all don't know yet, i've decided to sell my b-50 esp bass for $130 dollars, fast buyers will be able to negotiate.. for details, you can contact me at 90880212 or pm me at soft.com or just talk to me on msn..
Click here for more information regarding the guitar

61 days of love (:

2010-01-18T19:54:00.000-08:00

hey its the 19th!, almost been a month since i first disappear from singapore not counting the 5 days i went there.
and yes, HAPPY 2 months babychelxzz (: altough today was started with quite a few incidence, banging the motorbike is one, and baby didnt come back :3
anyways, i just bought my green paint. since im going to spend my whole day with chel, ive decided to paint my room tomorrow.. its going to be great i tell you
its 1209 pm and im waiting for rachel to answer me on msn..
ok thas it ;D
i love you baby <3

2010-01-06T06:44:00.001-08:00

Audi a4(B8)

to my suprise this german car has actually a high rating of comfort in handling
except for the location of the headlight button are confusing
and today i've got the chance to ride it :D
first ever luxury car that ive been permitted to drive
:):):)

Oh and yes.. its modified.. HKS ftw :)

2010-01-05T08:18:00.001-08:00

Its 2010, the year that ill get my o level result, my driving licence, permission to drink,club,etc..
and its 2 years to 2012.. hahaha
here are some pictures i took from the new years eve
:)

austin and panda, lol

as i was saying rachel, fanta:)

my hair is godlike

my cousins

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!
hope to end this year with a smile, again :)

Why?

2009-12-29T13:35:00.000-08:00

Its one day till new year and i find that a number of people that i love was taken back to god's shoulder this year
i was browsing trough an old album when i came across a picture of my 10th birthday anniversary. there were lots of lovely people there. it reminded me of the beautiful childhood past and also awaken me that we will all have to grow up.
3/4 of my friends in the picture migrated elsewhere, some ended up dead, only a handful remained in contact and i could only meet those handful during a long holiday period.
I didnt know why i was so emotional and moody just because i saw that picture, maybe it was also caused by the fact that im missing baby like.. hell a lot.
well she tried to understand my feelings but i cant tell her because nobody will understand.
I've been living like a bird without a proper home eversince i was a kid.
it feels like ive only been flying around from one place to another.
well, I've learnt to live that way and i just i didnt realise that till now.
I should start treasuring the small things that i have now before i lose it

Why can't they understand
the way we feel
They just don't trust
what they can't explain
I know we're different but,
deep inside us
We're not that different at all

And you'll be in my heart
Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more

2009-12-27T08:51:00.000-08:00

Ok, its been awhile.. quite a few things happened.. well, not much
here are the pictures i took these few days

my ahpek brother

DUNHILL SMOOTH LIMITED EDITION
Rp.12000($2) XD

some random picture i took on the way to my mom's friend's house

late night supper with adrian

hey, photo of the day

Ms. Rachel Ann-marie Tay<3

miss you baby

2009-12-24T10:25:00.000-08:00

25th december 2009
christmas eve
well.. i dont celebrate christmas but well, my wife do
:)

ok i went bandung with my family today for a meeting with supplier from the farm
it went well:)
i got bored during the 5 hour ride there.. so i took some pictures
here you go

as you see.. i didnt even go near the town area..
so much for bandung..

it was fucking cold there
but i like..
i was talking to rachel on the way and alexander dimitrius was fighting with my mom
havoc
hahaha
i miss you rachel
merry christmas<3>

2009-12-23T03:34:00.000-08:00

life is never the same without you on my side.. this sucks..

2009-12-22T00:18:00.001-08:00

just came back from bayu's cemetery.. i wasnt planning on going there but my friends came to my house early this morning and asked me if i wanted to follow them there..
decided not to go to bandung today.. i'd rather stay home.
im fucking tired omg..
im going to sleep..
cao~

Your voice made me smile

2009-12-21T12:38:00.000-08:00

dear diary,
I landed here in indonesia this afternoon and found my self blown to tears on board of the plane.
there are a few things that i will need to say here.. to WHOM it may concern <3
first. thank you. the letter you gave me makes me feel safe in here. i hope you will always love me no matter where i am.
second. i miss you as much as i do
third. do like what we always do when we are sad baby.. you know what it is :)
four. i will come back and i promise you that
fifth. I love you
sixth. ''I feel like as if he just dumped me." ok.. that is extreme..
seventh. I still love you
eight. since you dont want to count it down, ill do it its 88 days till i fly back to singapore.. yes.. fly back :)
ninth. I've got a real bad cut on my knee.. I wish you could kiss it to heal.. i miss your healing smooches <3
tenth. Im not as strong as you think.. I do cry
eleventh. I love you, again

okay. those are some things.. i guess i cant be online tomorrow, Im going to outskirt to get supplies.. the one i got just now wasnt enough

but yes, i will call you:):)

love <3

2009-12-14T22:13:00.000-08:00

im going to get a vans shoe :)

a lil bit of astronomy

2009-12-09T19:05:00.001-08:00

Today i made a research about the orion's belt.. its a clear and easy to spot belt in the night sky.. consist of 6 perpendicular star in relation with the movement of the orion.. the old navy uses this as the "sky compass" and the Egyptians used this star arrangement to build the position of the pyramids.. how cool is that?

ok so the picture is the rough sketch of how you read the orion's belt..
(:(:(:
blue is the direction
yellow is the belt

2009-01-30T04:55:00.001-08:00

im bored and i want to jam..
thats it..
#$%^&*

2009-01-27T00:12:00.000-08:00

last night i saw a prostitute in geylang who looked like michelle..
afterwards.. i asked my friend to fuck her..
hard..
I also saw rudi on mrt
me and leon was like
"ava sucks right?"
hahah.. ok thats it
im bored lah sial.. :(

2009-01-24T06:56:00.000-08:00

dear diary,
i just went home tonight.. i was super exhausted..
so i took a nap..
i swear i dreamt about the movie that i watched just now..
anyway, im writing this while im listening to the song for what its worth by for this cycle :)
ok anyways..
it called the inkheart..
basically, the story goes like this
a little girl and his father was in persuit of her mom
and the girl, knowing her father has the silver tounge power which can make things turns real
by reciting a book..
and somehow.. she managed to found out that she had the same power..
and that girl saved the mother..
and bla bla bla..

ok anyways.. lets jump to a conclusion..
now im thinking that I am living in a book
and there are worlds all around
in every story and fairytales existed
there are worlds there

i know it seems stupid
but then wait.. it makes sense right?
well.. i believe in destiny which god has made for me
what if that destiny itself is a book which is authored by god?
HAHAHAH.. (okay..now it doesn't make sense)

ok anyways..
today is the first jamming session for my new band
I swear tessa looked like a goth queen today.. lol
and its rather fucked because the commitment of the members was like..
0
hahah.. but yah.. its a good day..
but i swear.. i wont read that stgs book again
now i cant sleep :(

but fuck it
you see..
if this live is a movie
will it be a 10 star rated movie?
or will it be some jack neo-directed movie that is fucking boring? (joking lah.. don't sue me for this)
MAKE THIS LIFE COLOURFUL GUYS :)
so.. lets all buy a paint :D
cheebye.. im fuking lame sia
ravenous ravenous rhinos ah sia..
tenenenene WHAT THE F*CK
*hardcore dance*
*mosh*
*face kena beaten*
*go to mama*
*cry* :)

2009-01-12T05:31:00.000-08:00

I walked beneath the shadow of the sunset
till it gets dark and the moon starts shining.
It was then when a small boat arrived.
It took her away and disappeared under the cover of twilight.
This time i wont let go of her hand.
I took the nearest life vest and started to swim.
It was startling
But I was knocked unconscious by strong currents beneath my legs that brought me onto the rocks.
It was there when i started to remember my past...

I remembered having a friend
he tried to comfort me despite my condition.
It was then when all memories start fading
I cant remember a thing,
not a single thing about my life

In my dream, i heard a voice..
that voice is calling my name
I barely open my eyes and I saw a pale face infront of me
it looked familiar but then..
wait..

it was her..
she escaped from the horror of the night and saved me

I think im in love...

2009 :)

2008-12-31T20:58:00.000-08:00

Hey guys..!
ok.. I want to say something about last night..
first of all.. my and a few friends went to a cyber cafe to play dota and lepak.. afterwards.. we went to play soccer at the park.. follwed by visiting austin because he was freakin sick.. then.. I went to ask my neighbor for permission whether she allow me to climb to my house from her house because nobody was home and the doors were locked.. ( I did all that just to put back my sarong and take my freakin jacket.. lol) afterwards.. we went to watch the firework(I swear its was better than last year's city hall's fireworks..).. afterwards.. we went to break in a party in some stranger house.. followed by repairing my motorbike because the damn engine leaks.. but to no avail.. so i pushed my bike back home that is like 32938270397239028039 km away.. then I tompang kevin's bike to follow the guys to play dota.. again.. then we drink.. then go home..
suah..
that was the freakin weirdest night in my life..
but it was fun..
so fuck it..
days left till school reopens : 4 days
and im still in indonesia
fucking retarded..
yes..
anyways..
I wrote this because im fuking bored at the moment..
but yah.. this is the 1st jan
new spirit bro!
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE (:

2008-11-25T00:10:00.000-08:00

hey guys.. its been awhile, well.. Im getting back to singapore soon.. and all those fucked up shit will come back to me again.. tsk.. but anyway, i just heard this song called decode.. i think its a new song by paramore.. its a soundtrack for twilight though.. but its awesome..
oh and i just created my flickr album.. i put some of my fucked up photos there.. and thanks leonard for somehow naming my photography nick.. hahah

cheers to love :)

welcome to my paradise

2008-11-11T09:13:00.000-08:00

Well.. its just a typical day in this huge country.. basically, I spent my whole day at the beach.. lepaking with my cousins.. the sea was choppy.. but it was still beautiful.. compared to the super lame east coast beach that i always visit in singapore.. hahah..
well.. this is a few pictures I took..

The beach.. supposed to be able to see mount krakatoa.. but then the camera's pixel was too small..

The Irreplaceable view

Cheers To Love~ (:

tralala trilili :D

2008-11-08T08:57:00.000-08:00

Hi fellas.. just went back from my aunt's house at bandung.
well.. we jammed a little.. made some crazy shits.. before i went to shop
oh.. and i took some picture there..
oh and .you know the funny thing? i was so freeakkin curious today.. i seriously thought that me and widya were related.. hahah.. but nope.. we ARE NOT :D

mirror mirror hanging on the wall

playing with my uncle's squier telecaster.. ;D

some random rainy night thingy

okay i think that is it for now..
TATA :)

this is why im hot

2008-11-07T08:16:00.000-08:00

hey fellas.. well i just got back from senayan city.. freak man.. i just realised the taxi ride was suprisingly cheap if i convert it to singapore dollars... hahah
like what sby says.. "show you patriotism side"
oh well.. i will.. as a good citizen :D.. INDO ROCK MY SOCKS.. hahah :D
asking me why? curious? COME AND VISIT YOURSELF.. sure wont regret one.. hahah
;D
i love life..
*flashback*
shit..
i hate life
hahah

oh and anyway..im not posting any tourism advertisment here.. im just showing you the true passion of being an indonesian.. *pointing at the moon* see that? one day one of us will touch that ground over there.. YES.. ONE DAY.. but i dont know when.. maybe like 3829038203982 years from now? but yes.. ONE DAY BABY!.. ONE DAY.. hahaha

tsk..

2008-11-06T08:03:00.000-08:00

uh..life is so fucked up..havent been sleeping for two days now..
i dont fucking know when the fuck is this fucking shithole going to end.. but i seriously doubt it will end soon...

i hope god really do exist..

:(

2008-10-23T10:12:00.001-07:00

uh.. feel super wierd ah.. like everywhere i go.. it seems like the forbidden name appeared everywhere.. even during work.. if this continues.. things are going to go seriously badd.. omg man.. SOMEBODY SAVE ME...

#$%^&*(

and one more thing..

I WANT A FREAKING TWLOHA SHIRT!

a song for you

2008-09-26T23:06:00.000-07:00

alright guys.. i just went home from ecp.. lepaking with bryan and jun mo..

oh and anyway.. i recorded the song.. but it still sucks.. i will try to record it one more time when im free... the lyrics of the song goes like this:

A SONG FOR YOU

listen to the radio

listen to the music

and listen to the lyrics

those words that reminds me of you

[verse]

words that penetrates my fragile heart

hurts me like a bullet wound on my chest

I made this song for you

please, for one more time, come back

(and stay beside me. forever)

[chorus]

so listen to the song

(and sing it together with me)

for one last time,

come back to me, my hope

(the hope that never came true)

and stay beside me, forever

[2nd verse]

i am trying to find out whats wrong

is it me? or is it a misunderstanding?

and if there is something wrong(one more time)

for heaven sake, spill everything out

before it is too late (x3)

(chorus)

[bridge]

the sound of you rings through the thin air

and i hear it fading

but before i say goodbye,

please,hug me and kiss me goodbye(kiss me goodbye!)

(chorus)

before it is too late(3x)

heart burst into fire

2008-09-25T13:16:00.000-07:00

hey hey guys.. its been awhile.. oh well.. been studying these days.. its less than 4 days to n levels man.. well.. i just returned from bryan's house to lepak after a full day stuying at library and tuition centre.. felt quite energetic. and i managed to compose a song. it is 4.51am now and i super fresh.. hahah.. well.. the song is still classified.. but i have already made a rough recording for it.. the song title is "a song for you". it is dedicated to somebody, but, oh well.. ill tell you the story more once i release the full recording okay :).. but, for all those hardcore bastards.. just to let you know, this is a slow song.. hahahah :)
okay.. i got to force myself to sleep since im going to meet a couple of friends in 6 hours time.. hahah.. okay
cheers to love babeh.. :)

wish like theres no tomorrow :)

2008-09-24T09:20:00.000-07:00

hey guys.. just went home.. its quite late now..just went home from town.. to meet leonard just to slack around and checking the f1 track scene.. followed by meeting jun mo to lepak and johannes to eat dinner.. and man.. im in a bloody excited mood.. i cant wait till holiday come man!!!
hahah.. anyway.. ive created my wishlist.. what to get before next year..
that is
16gb Ipod touch :)
nikon d40x
a new modified cpu
nitendo ds
a new room.. probably a new hostel ( conformed )
johny christ, marc mcknight, and josh gilbert's signature at the back of my bass.. :D

if i could get all that...... ill be the happiest kid in the world.. hahah :D
and one more
CHEERS TO LOVE BABEE.. oh.. wait.. i think ill change it..
drum rolls for the drama queen! :)

whoo

2008-09-22T06:21:00.000-07:00

hey again guys.. just returned home from marine parade.. as usual.. lepaking with nic and gang.. and today was junmo's birthday and we gave him a little surprise with a birthday cake.. hahah.. it taste awesome man.. then we played basketball.. before we went home and staring at the sky again.. hahah well.. i met leonard again at macs this morning and we decided to cao school because mr yong's car went inside.. hahah.. but we went to the library and study though.. hahah

shit.. n levels is just like.. 7 days away man.. i hope i do well.. hahah..

and again.. happy birthday junmo!..

and one more time

cheers to love babee :)

a late night serenade

2008-09-20T10:06:00.000-07:00

hey guys.. just recieved a very bad news today.. one of my old school teacher is suffering from kidney diesease.. and she is in a critical condition.. she used to be my language teacher when i was primary 6.. I had always hated her for scolding me and crap.. but i always admired her as the most patriotic person in the whole universe..

this is the blog link about the damn thing...

click here..

the damn thing is in indonesian.. so if you dont speak

nor read indonesian.. don't even bother clicking.. :S

okay.. i gtg now.. anyway..

Im cnt wait for tomorow's breakfast man!.. sushi!! :)

mood: excited + sad.. but abit confused.. hahah

this would be the true test

of her existence in the world..

all eyes on you mrs heti!..

get well soon :)

nehi nehi

2008-09-17T09:28:00.001-07:00

hi again guys.. im super bored here.. i dont feel like studying though.. hahah..

well.. just came back from city hall.. lepaking with leonard.. follow him taper his pants all.. then went to macs for some straw flicking games.. lol..

okay.. i didnt go to school again today.. im so fukin dead man.. my parents is so going to fly here and murder me.. hahah.. jk

okay.. i gtg.. had to wake up in the morning and slash some chicken...

oh anyway.. i found the chord for cheers to love.. hahah.. :) im a happy kido.. :D

kay.. caooo

cheers to love babee :)

vulnerableee

2008-09-17T09:28:00.000-07:00

well.. guys.. i just returned home.. it was a hell long day.. and night.. i swear.. im so exhausted.. but i dont even understand why the heck am i writing my blog entry now..

oh well.. it was a great day at school.. followed by tuition, before hangin out at parkway for some break before i met jumo and a couple of other rp friends to burn lantern and stuffs..

well.. it was fun.. but man.. ITS SO DAMN TIRING.. argh.. i cant stand anymore man.. but i got to say this..

IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII

AAAAAAAAAAAAAM

GOOOOOOOOOINGG

TOOOOOOOOOOOOO

BEEEEEEEEEEEEEED

so cao~

cheers to love babeh :)

NIKON

2008-09-15T08:08:00.000-07:00

hey guyss.. its been while.. hahah.. alright.. i am in deep confusion now.. i cant decide wether to get a nikon d40x or d60..

they all share almost the same feature.. and pricing also.. i guess..

anyone have suggestion? please tell me by the shout box kay :)

cheers to love babeeh

nyehnyehnyeh

2008-09-09T06:42:00.000-07:00

Hey people!.. its been quite awhile since i posted a proper shit. so here it goes..
oh well.. today is overall a study day.. geo prelims today and i reached school so damn bloody late.. oh well.. but i finished the paper :)
i went macs with leonard,eugene and bryan afterwards and did some crazy stuffs.. ohya.. guess what.. I am in contact with my phone stealer :).. after that.. i went for tuition and library with faiz and gang.. but well.. i wanted to return bryan's guitar but in the end i bring it back home because he had to carry his pedals == AYE..
oh.. and guess what people? i am officially not trusting the world.. :).. i guess keeping thigns to yourself is better than sharing it arent they? :)
eh.. and i also made a video shit just now.. leonard and me was trying to suck a solution of sugar, creams, milo, grape jam, and milk tea.. hahah.. and included in this video: the fastest dying record of guitar hero immitation played by eugene.. hahah.. okay.. enjoy

oh.. and sorry for bad quality.. THE PHONE SUCKED.. heheh :)

cheers to love :)

cheers to love..

2008-09-06T05:45:00.000-07:00

Don't we all have our frustrations?.
Don't we all want to learn some patience?.
Don't we all want some attention?.
Don't we all want to praise our existence?

But it's so tiring, to feel the pain.
And it's so painful,
To feel that it's impossible to love, again.

Oh my god i'm a stranger to myself, and nothing's left for you.
Oh my god i'm sinner, against to what the freaks call love.
Oh my god I do not know love, I close my eyes to pretend it doesn't hurt.
Oh my god I do not know love, I open my eyes in hope of finding you there.

I close my eyes and I count to ten.
Cause I can never find a heart to settle in.
Who is watching? Who is watching you now?
This is more captivating than the light.
The light that never shines it doesn't ever shine.

It gives a hope that dies.

I wish I was alive.

Go ahead and make me an offer.
Place your cards across the table.
We've been here for too long.
And this has got to stop.
Nothing's okay, i've been lying to you.
Nothings okay, i've been putting on airs.
I cannot trust myself.
I've been here for too long.

DON'T WE ALL JUST WANNA FEEL ALIVE!

SO HERE'S TO LOVE.
AND ALL THE PAIN THAT IT REQUIRES.
SO WHAT IS LOVE?
I JUST WANT TO FEEL ALIVE!
SO HERE'S TO LOVE.
AND ALL THE PAIN THAT IT REQUIRES.
SO WHAT IS LOVE?
I JUST WANT TO FEEL ALIVE.

2008-09-01T08:44:00.000-07:00

HEYYY wussup here i am.. sitting on the damn chair.. writing blog when tomorow is my n levels..

okay.. anyway.. today is the start of fasting month.. i love it man.. hahah.. at least i got a chance to lose my weight.. hahah

okay.. tomorow is the start of mother tounge n levels.. i hope i pass with at least a2.. :D..

ok good luck for me hahah

oh anyway.. baybeats was AWESOMELY AWESOME.. hahha.. for those of you who didnt come.. you missd the biggest shit man.. hahah.. i got cought in the mosh and i got whacked in the face until my mouth bleed.. :(.. but well.. i had a super fun time.. hahah..

okay.. gtg sleep now.. :)

mood: nerveous..

BAAAYBEEAAATS

2008-08-29T23:56:00.001-07:00

Hey guyss.. im killing time here.. so ive decided to post some to my blog..

oh well.. these days have been screwed.. i guess.. i almost cut my wrists.. BUT.. i hav a phobia with razorblade.. THEREFORE.. i need to use a kitchen knife to cut it.. but it was so damn huge that ive decided not to ==..

oh.. and anyway.. today is the second day of baybeats.. im going there later with eugene and vicknesh.. ill post the pictures tomorow kay :D

mood : EXCITED :D:D:D:D

cheers to lovee

2008-08-26T08:38:00.000-07:00

hey guys.. this is officially the 3rd day of me being a local music scenester.. hahah.. i cant wait for baybeats MAN!!.. hahah.. okay.. back to blogging..

i didnt go to school today.. i didnt feeel well somehow.. but well.. i met faiz at parkway then he came to my house to practice the new original for this sunday's event.. oh anyway.. im having an acoutic gig this sunday.. a split section of the seraphine.. featuring johannes on the guitars.. and please do check out our band website for details okay :D ---> click here! <-- for the band's myspace.. so.. do come down and support.. since we will be playing 2 brand new originals.. :)

mood: sleepy, missing someone, excited:D

2008-08-25T06:16:00.000-07:00

hey hi guyss.. pardon me for yesterday.. i was just being a fucked up guy.. hahah..

oh well.. today was good.. there were more laughter than yesterday.. (DUH).. nothing intersting today though.. its just that im in a local music mood now.. hahah.. i tried to find cheers to love recording.. oh.. sry.. STEAL.. hahah.. ok watever..

i gtg man.. southpark is waiting..

CAO :D

if only dying will solve everything..

2008-08-24T06:49:00.000-07:00

ARGH.. FUCK THE WORLD.. im so fucking confused now.. people around me are so fucking wierd.. even my so called brothers bitched me.. ARGH... I HATE PEOPLE.. shawn.. wad the fuck.. were you thinking huh? HAH? FUCKING BITCH BEHIND MY BACK LAH.. HAH?... now i feel so fucking left out.. i missed myself.. i dont think im being me now.. its been awhile since ive become myself.... i just want to end up my life and pass through all these misery..

mood? im so fucking depressed.. im confused.. i missed someone.. i need a listening ear.. i need a bus to bang me down.. i need a knife to cut my throat.. i need someone to KILL ME.. ARGH

:S

2008-08-23T04:45:00.000-07:00

wahhhh.. people around me are so effing petty with me.. i feel so left out man.. :(
anyway.. back to blogging.. well.. i just went back from bryan's house.. i went town yesterday to buy some stuff.. then we went to parkway macs and saw some guy wanking in the toilet.. ARGH.. sick LAH.. well.. then i followed bryan to amelia's house to pass her something.. he tried to be romeo and juliet.. but he was just too damn bloody short.. hahah :D:D:D.. then i went ulric's hse to stay over.. i recorded remembering sunday cover.. it was awesome.. hahah.. well.. i went home afterwards.. being soaked by the rain.. coz faiz was at my hse and i wasnt even there.. oh well..
today there was a birthday party also.. :D.. i ate until i cant even breath.. man.. hahah.. okay.. i think thats all..
ohya.. singapore lost the bronze medal match.. HAHAHAH.. :D
MOOD: ANGSTY + Happy + Missing someone..
caracal rawkz anyway :D

reformasi -> for me

2008-08-20T08:39:00.001-07:00

well.. its been a totally screwed day.. nothing else to say..

Ive been crazy today.. and i decided to start all over again from tomorow..

I promise ill be a new.. bisma.. ill forget watever is in the past.. starting from tomorow..

YOU WILL SEE A BRAND NEW BISMA.. in school, outside, in studio, at home, etc..

:S

2008-08-18T08:36:00.000-07:00

well.. i came back from library.. it was bloody hell raining like hell man.. i went home soaking wet.. well.. hopefully tomorow my shopes would dry up.. hahah.. anyway.. i just screwed up my english prelims and i duno wad to do.. hahah..
good luck to me :)
caooo

:)

2008-08-17T07:50:00.000-07:00

HAPPY INDEPENDANCE DAY.. MY dear countryyyy :)
whoopy.. its indonesian independance day.. and i didnt celebrate coz i woke up damn bloody late today.. but well.. i went to library to study.. however.. it was full.. and we decided to go airport instead
as usual.. we didnt study in the end.. we just staring, stoning, getting all mind blurred at the planes that were taking off and landing.. but out of the blue.. i saw one burst of flame at east coast area.. i didnt know wad was that.. man.. it was huge.. i think i should check out the news tmr.. hopefully its not at east coast park man!! that place is so awesome.. and if those place burn.. ill be dowwwwwwnnnnn so low low low low low low low.. hahah.. okay lame..
tmr english prelims btw.. and im at page 181 at my book.. should be finishing by tmr.. :)
CAOOO~

IIEE SIII PEEEEE

2008-08-16T09:09:00.001-07:00

wow.. what a perfect day.. ive got a very nice story book to read.. have fun at ecp.. zioning, lepaking, soccering, studying, going to johan's ex's house to watch movie that doesnt really exist, and eating dinner with my bro.. hahah

anyway.. ecp was damn fun.. i didnt take pics.. but we made a castle with lots of bricks to protect the castle from the tide, digging ground, playing soccer and stuff.. it was damn bloody cold there.. i swear.. so i decided to get myself wet.. since the water was warm..

afterwards, we went library to find some story books.. i swear.. i found a story book that is damn nice.. ill review it once i finish reading.. hahah.. im at page 87 now :)

ok.. i need to go.. CAOOOO~

vanikem.. :)

2008-08-15T08:02:00.000-07:00

okay.. ss prelims today.. and i just had enough time to finish the paper.. though it takes time for me to string my bloody paper.. and the whole class was staring at me with the stare of hatred.. hahah.. well.. hopefully i do well.. i wanna go JC MANN!! :D

ohya.. afterwards i went to zion, followed by pool, and jamming till 5, then i went to library to read some boring story book.. well.. afterwards then i went tuition.. not to study.. but to shout the TNT im dynamittee.. TNT.. i bomb your mom!.. XD hahah.. okay.. overall.. its been a very fun day.. even though im having a headache now.. hahah

well.. i guess ill go sleep nowww.. i guess i go sleep noww.. i guess ill gooo sleep (with remembering sunday tone) :)

birthday!..:)

2008-08-14T07:16:00.000-07:00

hey.. happy birthday to me!!! :D.. well.. today went good.. damn good actually... hahah
firts thing.. my mother tounge paper was damn easy.. second thing.. ive got my first wish completed.. not getting bashed in class :).. third thing.. i can actually study at library for a long time just now.. fourth.. i got free 3 hour lanning at zion.. fifth.. i got birthday suprised by my hostel mates.. sixth.. there were a total number of 57 people wishing me a happy birthday.. thanks guys! :).. (not including my classmates)..
ok.. tomorow is my ss prelims.. hopefully i can do well.. hahah
caooo~

mochiiii

2008-08-10T09:37:00.000-07:00

phew.. just went home from blk 67.. the usual lepak place.. man.. i was damn close from losing my file.. luckily a girl found my file, with checks and stuffs.. that woman called my guardian and she returned it to me..

the girl was rather hot too :).. and guess wad!.. JUNMO is F***in smsing the girl now.. hahahah.. the last message i saw was "go home quick la.. help your mom take care of her baby".. hahah shit man.. i was freaking cracked up by that thing.. those despos uh.. :D

ohya.. boredom actually drives me to play command conquer at zion for 1 hour.. it was hell of fun man.. even though i lost all the rounds (im still a noob la blady)..

oh.. and i didnt go funan today.. i just realised that the sales was under a term and condition.. must purchase a $400 worth of stuffs then can enjoy the 90% discount :(.. gay laaa!

meh

2008-08-09T20:51:00.000-07:00

well.. just came back from mic's brother's bday party.. faiz didnt turn up coz his mom asked him to stay home.. so the acoustic gig was CANCELLEEED.. :(.. but well.. at least i had funn.. eventhough i felt damn bloody lost there.. hahah..

ohya.. i heard of this sale at funan.. they said in newspaper.. im not sure wad date. that funan is having a super great sale..(whoopy:)) im going to check it out later.. if its true then i might be purchasing something there.. hahah..

okei.. caoo

NYEEH

2008-08-08T10:51:00.000-07:00

well.. ive been desperately wanting to go ecp for the last 2 weeks.. and guess waaad... I just went back from ecp.. making campfire.. staring at the horizon and impressed by the scenery there.. it was sooo LOVELY.. i cant barely see the ships sailing pass because of the magnificent haaazzzee.. hahahha..ohya.. today my band was perfoming for the national day thing.. and brandon's guitar ran out of battery.. hahah.. but paiseh la.. the whole bloody school laugh at him..lol.. poor nigga :D

and guess wad.. im in a happy mood.. even though im sooo damn bloody exhausted.. but still.. this is my happiest day in 5 days.. Lg ;D

wow.. :):):):)

2008-08-07T08:54:00.000-07:00

alright.. its raining cats and dogs out there.. and my mood is really on swing.. two hours ago i was an energetic kid but now i seriously hates life..

well.. school went right today.. managed to bring my journal safely back home, with my empty presentation board.. but things turned bad during the rehearsal.. we all were pissed by mr chia and we decided to giv him a lesson by pulling out from the perfomance.. well.. in the end we dont luh.. waste effort only lah..

okay.. and the next bad thing is that my hostel mate said that a phone he supposed to be lending me is in thailand now.. and blablabla..

well.. i guess i sleep now..

ciaooo

Angel

2008-08-06T07:01:00.000-07:00

well.. today is kinda screwed i guess.. even if the jamming practice and school went well and stuffs.. but there is some stuffs that aint settled.. talked to lots of people for consultation.. and finnaly.. there is one way out..

well.. out of my emoness... i was nappingg, to refresh myself. and i dreamt about this

i made it in essay form. (and sorry for language errors, i know i sucked)

so this is how it goes

I dreamt last night, a very very, disturbing dream.

there was a man, he was walking.. alone.. on a sand, with only a gush of cold air, accompanying him.there were sounds ringing in his ear too. it seemed like he was born to be alone, hatred, without a soul to care

he was shouting for help. Trembled, with the lack of life within.

and all he wants was to suffocate himself to death. with a rope that was hanging beside him.it seemed like god wanted him to die too.

but, when all hopes seems to fade,

an angel descended from the sky . she appeared from darkness.Beyond the thick cloud and mist. flying towards him, flapping her magnificent wings , she landed in front of him.

she was somehow sent by the lord. a guardian angel whose task was to make sure he was grateful of life, and faith.

however, their friendship was nothing more then platonic.

however, they craved more,but couldn't.

so they foolishly decided to keep their friendship a deep, dark secret.

but one day

a seraph whom she trusted deeply with her heart

betrayed her and revealed their secret to the lucifer

the demons turned against them and cursed him with a very horrific, and traumatizing eternal maledictory

I guess.. there will be no happy ending to both of them, the damned, the hatred, the vile.

but all Im hoping now.. is for that one fine day

a day.. where a true miracle happens.

a day where

a simple sentence, with thousands of meanings.

a sentence that says

"they live happily ever after"

came true.

and thanks for leonard for editing abit of my essay.. :)

NYEH

2008-08-05T07:38:00.000-07:00

omg.. i just wanted to post those dumb link in the template and i end up screwing up my blog.. hahahah.. and you see.. it took me 1 hr 30 mins to redo my skin.. :(

anyway.. ive finnaly let my dnt artifact go.. even though not fully go.. but im actually going to do my folio properly :).. although there was trouble in school just now.. im still happyyyyy

and im soo damn excited for gigs on friday and saturday.. bbq on sunday, and soccer match on monday!!!.. yea yea yea.. at least i could have a break before prelims start.. whoopy!

alright.. and thanks matthias for teaching me how to link.. :):):)

my blog is backkkK! ;D

2008-08-04T04:25:00.000-07:00

alright.. basically its been one month and a few days since the last time i posted..

so i guess theres no july 2008 archieve XD.. and thanks for all the classmates for driving me to blog again

okay.. back to blogging.. ill just summarize wad happened these few days.. its been a bomb la.. failed my dnt artifact, prelim coming and its on my freakin birthday, losing phone.. TWICE.., my band got elected for patrician idol final ;D.. and yeah dude.. im so damn lost from the world without one kind of technology.. handphone!.. :(

anyway.. it was written in my last post that i was going to review august rush huh? okay.. a good gentlemen always keep his promise.. and basically, the movie is friggin awesome.. but after a long time.. you will start to think that the movie is quite bullshit..hahahah

and okay!.. for those idiots who wants to get linked- shawn, matthias, christine, DEXTER, mitch, etc etc.. (if i write all i think ill get old and die first).. i will~ :)

2008-06-20T06:52:00.000-07:00

well..nth much to write about.. just got back from peninsula.. brought a grey skinnies.. and eating dinner with wes..

hmm.. nth much happened today.. just study awhile at airport's macs with some friends.. doing some equation.. then cao alr..

hmm.. well.. yesterday was kinda fun.. good friends fetched me at airport then we go for soccer.. although i hav blister on my right foot.. i still managed to go tampines mall .. wanted to watch some movie.. but in the end those idiots decided to play some dumb game.. leaving me emo on the slide coz i hate the game.. haha..

well.. thats it.. im about to watch august rush now.. ill put my review on my next post :)

cao~

trip back to homeland

2008-06-14T05:11:00.000-07:00

well.. here i am..Indonesia, the country when heaven and hell comes by and blend to one piece.. .
just came back from soccer with my old friends.. they trained me to be a goalie for the first time and actually i enjoy it.. it is more fun than being a striker.. hahah..
but well.. coz they arent so good in striking then i come and help them in the forward position too..
yeah.. anyway.. portugal has saved my life!.. now im in portugal's side.. hail ronaldo! hahah
hmm.. and ive met quite a number of old friends here.. im hoping theres a class reunion someday.. but hope is hope.. hahah..
ohya. im coming back to singapore on the 19th.. but shit.. i dont feel like going back there.. hahah
but nevermind.. education comes first man.. :)
alright i guess ill make a move
ciao

gig--aftermath

2008-06-08T11:33:00.000-07:00

heey guys.. well.. i just woke up at these times... slept at 11 am.. wanted to wake up for dinner but accidentally overslept to midnight.. lol..

anyway.. just finished my gig.. although its kinda screwed up.. but.. watching the recorded video.. i think it should be rated as 7.5/10 luh.. not bad for a first timer.. haha..

well.. after that.. i went to tampines mart to watch soccer match at macs.. hahah.. it was about 2.30am.. followed by the second match (port vs turk) till 4am.. b4 we go asaiah's hse to play cards followed by lan for 1 hr then go home..

it was horrible man.. this should be a fun day.. instead.. vicknesh never turn up.. so i couldnt get my psp.. johannes didnt showed up too.. then i need to pay him 12 dollars from my money..

somemore the band was short of 45 dollars coz we lost some tix... man.. to make matters worst.. my super damn sissy and gay brother showed up yesterday at the gig area and saw me puffing.. and you know.. wad happened next.. thats why i wrote the sissy and gay..

well.. overall.. i missed the day man.. the band is disbaned for two weeks before we start for practices again.. we are looking forward for 2 originals before the next gig..

aso stay in tune!..

actually there are hell lots of things to write down.. but if i write it all.. i think my keyboard would turn into dust first..

so.. bye

ohya, and im going back to indonesia this week.. so i guess.. ill be a loner there for a couple of days.. :(

2008-06-01T10:02:00.001-07:00

well, its been awhile.. since i last talk about mmorpg and ole-ers.. lol

well.. speaking about ole.. me and my "brothers" team joined a street soccer competition at cage last friday.. it was hell of fun.. except that we lost to my own school team and a national team member..

the matches goes like this

5-0 (won)

2-0 (lost)

9-1 (lost)

6-0 (lost)

5-0 (lost)

HAHAHA..

we lost like one piece of cake at the middle of orchard road.. lol.. but well.. we had fun.. since i scored hatrick and mario ole-ed kabir..

submariners for lifeee!! hahahhaa

OLE!

2008-05-24T07:46:00.000-07:00

Just came back from expo.. celebrating asaiah's birthday..

and the most interesting thing that happened today is..

me and mario were oleing some random people walking around.. and the score goes like this:

ME: 1- stranger

2-mario

1-asaiah

5-wesley

Mario: 3-me

7!!!-stranger

2-wesley

1- asaiah

damn.. i lost..

but i swear it was fun man.. remember.. it was at expo!.. hahahahahhaa..

alright.. nothing else to say..

oh ya.. and we gave asaiah a super birthday gift..

a troley..

meh-

2008-05-23T08:05:00.000-07:00

well.. nothing much happened today.. its just a normal friday... its just that this afternoon me and allspark found something very disturbing at katong area.. a fat roller ball was looking for us..lol
well.. after that.. followed by jamming, lanning for one hour.. followed by swimming at home for like 3 hours until my skin disappear..lol
ANYWAY... i ive started playing a mmorpg after quitting for almost a year.. haha.. well, its all because my whole hostel playing the stupid game.. no..no.. not stupid.. FUN game.. hahaha

ps. coz i played it with bot.. hahaha.. (psst dont tell the gm.. lol)
pps.. its a cabal sea online anyway..

alright.. nothing else to say..
cao~

2008-05-20T01:08:00.000-07:00

man.. this is the first time i blog for nearly a month.. mostly caused by the busy-ness.. lol

ok.. basicly nothing interesting happened these few days.. but mid year exam is over.. and prelim is coming.. so no time to slack.. lol

ohya.. my guitar is sold to some 14 years old diploma.. and i taking out the acoustic from my selling list coz ive changed my mind..

and my gig is coming..

and yeah.. for those who dont know yet.. The newly-formed Seraphine secret is playing at homeclub at 7th of june.. the song list are secret.. and tickets are sold at 12 dollar each..

the band members are :

Shawn Allenspach (drums)

Sean Foo ( guitars )

Brandon Dass ( guitars )

Faiz ( vox )

me (bass)

so.. what are you waiting for! come down and we will rock the house :)

squier price revised..

2008-04-26T08:53:00.000-07:00

hey guys.. just came back from katong.. and one of the guys interested in my guitar just complained that he found something exactly the same at peninsula for $300..

well.. to make you guys comfortable.. ive dropped my price to $280 <-- im telling you.. its painful to do that.. ( well i will be glad and happy if you buying at $32o though..)

well.. and dont forget if anyone is interested in my effects.. you can contact me :)

ohya.. and my acoustic is reserved guys.. so no more bargaining.. lol..

2008-04-22T03:42:00.000-07:00

basicly study the whole day.. + doin some extra lesson in my tuition place till 6.. well eventhough i came late coz of the rain.. but i push myself to school..lol.... ohya.. anyway.. i forgot to link you guys some very good website made by my classmate..

click here.. and the other one is This

ohya.. for john.. you must thank me or advertising your site here :)

2008-04-20T04:57:00.000-07:00

hiii.. just came back from town.. doin some extra lesson followed by looking for dnt stuffs.. and guess wad.. I found it all!! from the motor to even the uv light transformer.. :) however.. the price doesnt makes me happy ..

but.. zz fuk it man.. i got 4 free sticks today :):)

true musician

2008-04-17T08:02:00.000-07:00

hey.. i posted today just because i want to share this video with you guys..

note: this is what we call a TRUE music passion.. for those guys who give up in playing instruments just because of small complaints like " my hands are too small " or watever craps.. watch this video and you mind should be changed..

2008-04-12T06:31:00.001-07:00

wow.. this is my lucky day..
there are 3 good things today
I found my dear and dearest phone back
my acoustic are reserved until mid year ( i can still entertain higher offer anyway)
my room is finnaly clean!!! whee
ok back to blogging..
nth much happened today.. well.. basicly lepak core the whole day and selling some flags until 4.. and anyway.. this is the earliest time i came back home on saturday in one month.. =)
ohya, and for those who are looking for guitars.. im selling my gears and effects at a very cheap price.. in 9/10 condition
those are
stratocaster standard series fat strat (double hambucker) - $350 ( exchangeable to any ibanez bass)
peavey blazer 15 watt -$80 ( exchangable to a certain 15 watt BASS amp)
zoom gfx 5 - $100
craftsman acoustic ( reserved) - $50
boss sd-1 super overdrive - $70

contact me if youre interested :)

peace out~ :)

Stolen phone! help!

2008-04-09T02:19:00.000-07:00

piang arh.. its been 3 days since my phone gone awol and i still cant find it.. ive made a police report and my friends say its useless.. so i decided to share with you guys ok?
if you find any nokia 6120 classic phone with the imei of 356255018095042 on any second hand shop.. please do contact my email..
be3zx@yahoo.co.uk
help will be apreciated..!

ANTI emo riot in mexico

2008-04-05T20:13:00.000-07:00

hey guys.. i just wake up today and checked some forum.. and guess what i found out lol

ANTI EMO RIOT!!!
wtf!
for explanation and description please refer to this page
http://blog.wired.com/underwire/2008/03/anti-emo-riots.html

cool huh? =p

2008-03-30T00:40:00.000-07:00

well.. its been awhile since i last posted.. and its been a good days.. =) well.. and last friday was my brother's birthday.. we celebrated it =)

this is not all.. afterwards we drag him to the swimming pool and throw him.. hahah.. hes so unlucky to have a brother like me =) and friend like them.. hahah
ohya, before the bash.. he also treat me, shawn, and johannes sushi.. mario and sushanti ( or wadever.. sorry i duno how to spell) came.. but no more space so they cao.. =) this is some picture taken..

can you guess what is written there? [100m]

45 plates.. hahah.. stil more..

hidden camera siol

hahah.. look at my face

group photo.. =p

cut the motherfuking cake bitch!

=).. sorry i didnt take the images when we drag him to swimming pool.. coz i was scared he bang my phone.. lol.. coz he was strugling like goats..
peace out~ =)

2008-03-26T01:08:00.000-07:00

ok.. another post.. becuase of boredom.. lol..
wel.. nothing much happened today.. it just that i found this super good acoustic guitar and im thinking of selling all my gears for that guitar.. lol.. and speaking about selling.. i have this prob coz these few days my amp tends to sound very cracky.. i think because some retard go and play my amp with a bass.. ( you know who you are).
ok and the list that i might be selling is
stratocaster fat strat a.k.a victoria( tradeble with bass guitar )
zoom gfx-5 multi effect
boss sd-1 super overdrive
peavey blazer amp 15 watt
craftsman cg-501 acoustic a.k.a jenny
if anyone interested in buying please do email me at be3zx@yahoo.co.uk..
seriously.. lol
and if anyone have any idea how to fix my amp please answer me in this link
http://soft.com.sg/forum/gear-guitar/56807-amp-problem.html#post586420 .. tanx
ciao

2008-03-23T05:49:00.000-07:00

woah.. stay at home for the whole day.. and ive just realised that i slept for 14 hours today.. my new sleeping record after 1996 where i slept for the whole day coz i was sick.. =)
sleeping beauty =)
and when browsing youtube today, i found this video.. i bet all indonesian know about this movie.. its an old comedy movie.. the main actors all died 3 out of 4.. and i think itsthe best indonesian comedy tv show la.. in this video.. they cover ticket to ride - beatles, and some other songs that they compose themself.. its funny if you understand it =) too bad you dont.. hahah

2008-03-22T09:04:00.000-07:00

woah.. long time nvr post alr..
just came back from parkway.. doing some screwed up jamming.. then long johning for very long ( seriously! ) followed by playing runescape at home.. hahah
ohya, i found this runescape private server, its darn good.. seriously.. you can have any item you want just by typing pickup.. this time, i remember the link.. so i can share it with you guys..
http://frugooscape.net/index.php ... <--- thats the link
seriously.. its damn goooodd.. =)
ciao

2008-03-19T06:14:00.000-07:00

screwed up day.. i swear.. no joke