Its one day till new year and i find that a number of people that i love was taken back to god's shoulder this year i was browsing trough an old album when i came across a picture of my 10th birthday anniversary. there were lots of lovely people there. it reminded me of the beautiful childhood past and also awaken me that we will all have to grow up. 3/4 of my friends in the picture migrated elsewhere, some ended up dead, only a handful remained in contact and i could only meet those handful during a long holiday period. I didnt know why i was so emotional and moody just because i saw that picture, maybe it was also caused by the fact that im missing baby like.. hell a lot. well she tried to understand my feelings but i cant tell her because nobody will understand. I've been living like a bird without a proper home eversince i was a kid. it feels like ive only been flying around from one place to another. well, I've learnt to live that way and i just i didnt realise that till now. I should start treasuring the small things that i have now before i lose it
Why can't they understand the way we feel They just don't trust what they can't explain I know we're different but, deep inside us We're not that different at all
And you'll be in my heart Yes, you'll be in my heart From this day on Now and forever more
BISMA! :) ♥
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Sunday, December 27, 2009
Ok, its been awhile.. quite a few things happened.. well, not much here are the pictures i took these few days
my ahpek brother
DUNHILL SMOOTH LIMITED EDITION Rp.12000($2) XD
some random picture i took on the way to my mom's friend's house
25th december 2009 christmas eve well.. i dont celebrate christmas but well, my wife do :)
ok i went bandung with my family today for a meeting with supplier from the farm it went well:) i got bored during the 5 hour ride there.. so i took some pictures here you go
as you see.. i didnt even go near the town area.. so much for bandung..
it was fucking cold there but i like.. i was talking to rachel on the way and alexander dimitrius was fighting with my mom havoc hahaha i miss you rachel merry christmas<3>
life is never the same without you on my side.. this sucks..
BISMA! :) ♥
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Tuesday, December 22, 2009
just came back from bayu's cemetery.. i wasnt planning on going there but my friends came to my house early this morning and asked me if i wanted to follow them there.. decided not to go to bandung today.. i'd rather stay home. im fucking tired omg.. im going to sleep.. cao~
BISMA! :) ♥
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Monday, December 21, 2009
Your voice made me smile
dear diary, I landed here in indonesia this afternoon and found my self blown to tears on board of the plane. there are a few things that i will need to say here.. to WHOM it may concern <3 first. thank you. the letter you gave me makes me feel safe in here. i hope you will always love me no matter where i am. second. i miss you as much as i do third. do like what we always do when we are sad baby.. you know what it is :) four. i will come back and i promise you that fifth. I love you sixth. ''I feel like as if he just dumped me." ok.. that is extreme.. seventh. I still love you eight. since you dont want to count it down, ill do it its 88 days till i fly back to singapore.. yes.. fly back :) ninth. I've got a real bad cut on my knee.. I wish you could kiss it to heal.. i miss your healing smooches <3 tenth. Im not as strong as you think.. I do cry eleventh. I love you, again
okay. those are some things.. i guess i cant be online tomorrow, Im going to outskirt to get supplies.. the one i got just now wasnt enough
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
a lil bit of astronomy
Today i made a research about the orion's belt.. its a clear and easy to spot belt in the night sky.. consist of 6 perpendicular star in relation with the movement of the orion.. the old navy uses this as the "sky compass" and the Egyptians used this star arrangement to build the position of the pyramids.. how cool is that?
ok so the picture is the rough sketch of how you read the orion's belt.. (:(:(: blue is the direction yellow is the belt